It’s like everything just left me.
I know this feeling all too well… and it has returned.
I need something, someone, to help me fight it. Where’s my knight in shining armor? It came and went. Gone.
I suddenly feel trapped, isolated, separated from reality. Maybe I’ve always been this way and hadn’t realized it.
Or maybe I’m too far into reality. I don’t know.
Either way, something’s not right. Something needs to change. I’ve gone from my spunky, sexual self to a quiet, secluded person who only a few people can see through. I think I’ve changed enough.
I’ve given up friends, my relationship, and more importantly, my music so I could focus on school and get through this. Yet somehow, I’m still getting pushed deeper and deeper into this hole.
I don’t understand.
What did I do wrong? Even after I’ve given up, no, sacrificed everything that brings me happiness and joy, I still fail.